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Wednesday, November 30, 2011

new blogsite

Na-ah! Not totally abandonin' this site. I just thought I needed a change. I'll try to repost every entry here. Visit my new blogsite:

oblongnakortengsquare.blogspot.com

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she told the story ... Wednesday, November 30, 2011 02:50 pm (jesusinsideme)

Monday, February 07, 2011

the other You.

Song I've been listenin' to. Wanna sing it to my husband (a person I haven't met yet apparently...hehe!) I actually did a cover of this song but I somehow can't seem to find a way to post it on here. Anyway, mas okay naman yan. Hihi!

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Without You - Brooke Fraser

The sky opens up over me and you
And you don't seem to mind that we're soaked through
You kiss me in the rain, I forget what I'm moaning about
And I know I wouldn't be the same without you

[Chorus]
I wouldn't be the same without you
I wouldn't be the same without you

I laugh at my own jokes and what I deem to be clever wit
And you don't seem to mind that I'm so stupid
You kiss me once again, I forget what I'm babbling about
And I know I wouldn't be the same without you

[Chorus]

I couldn't replicate your touch or love anyone again this much
But I wouldn't be the same without you

I wouldn't be the same
I wouldn't be the same
I wouldn't be the same without you
Without you
Without you
Without you

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she told the story ... Monday, February 07, 2011 03:17 pm (jesusinsideme)

Saturday, January 01, 2011

ako??

schmookpaloompa - n. either the bad or the good stuff; and a term I made up of course.

The past year has been great, as always. I thank the Lord because He never leaves us ungrateful, though sometimes, we actually become one...it's a regret. I really can't think of anything that I should be worried or concerned about. Oops! Wait, there's one:
I think that last year I've become an anti-social, (though not entirely, I believe) hehe!

Most people I know ask me to send them messages through Facebook, always assuming that I have an account on there. It doesn't really tick me off coz I understand that it has now become a trend but what am I supposed to do with it? I don't think I have to let everyone know what I'm doing or have been doing. Someone once told me, "mas madaling makipacommunicate kapag may FB"...the funny thing was, he was saying that in my face. I guess I also don't need to know what my old friends' garbs are coz I believe that someday, if we all need to cross paths, we would. A good friend of mine once had a very bad dream about Friendster. She deleted her account at once but for some reason, put it back up again. I believe in the dream she had, believed it was from God. So sorry talaga, di ako magffacebook. Is this a schmookpaloompa? My heart says "I don't care!" Am I being an anti-social? My mind says "Maybe and I don't care!" Hehehe!

I didn't attend any of our company's events (the parties and all). The reason has something to do with me, growing tired of all the fuzz and the hassle. I'm just happy to see the newbies, excited and happy about their new good friends and being with them makes them all giddy and cartwheely, hehe! I just want to be out of the scene , out of the pictures and out of the background. I told one of my students about it and he happens to be a very close friend of mine. I said, "I don't know but I just don't feel like participating in any of our company activities of late, is that weird?" He said, "No, it's not weird. I'm actually in that same situation." Thank God! I'm not alone! Hehehe! Well, just to shake off the anti-social's foothold, I invited some of my co-workers to come and share the the third to the last day of the year with me, here in our house. Twas all good. Is this a schmookpaloompa?

I don't reply to text messages unless I think I really need to respond. Dati pa tong reklamo patungkol saken, hehe! Hindi ako mahilig magunli, pag may kelangan akong sabihin at importante, nagpapaload ako at tumatawag. I noticed that not too many people sent me messages over Christmas day but a lot did last night. I didn't respond to any greetings and well-wishes. I don't mean to be rude. It's just that I see them around a lot and often, some of them, always. I just want to greet them in person, thank them in person, shake their hands and wish them well. Please don't get angry at me...I'm just not so into texting anymore. Hehehe! Pag di ako nagreply, it's either wala akong load dahil di talaga ko nagpapaload minsan, inaabot ng three weeks o kaya sa tingin ko ay wala naman akong masasabi sa inyong mga texts. Sorry talaga! Is this a schmookaloompa? Ewan.

It's surprising that even in my own home, I've become some sort of an anti-social. I sometimes leave the table in the midst of their (my family) dining and laughing. You would often find them gathered in one room, watching their favorite teleserye, while I'm downstairs, watching Ellen make her audience grow wild over her giveaways. sigh!

I believe that this isn't something new. I didn't grow up with a lot of friends. Di ako nagkaron ng talagang barkada. I've had bestfriends. People who were very close to me and who I've had intimate conversations with. I enjoy each of their company. I sometimes go out with just one or two of them but I don't hang out much with a group (churchmates are an exemption). I sometimes feel like I just need to be alone and there are days when I don't want to talk. Reading my bible or a good book makes me happy. The thought of being in a far away place, alone and under the shade of a huge, old tree, praying or reading makes me giggle inside. Weird ba ko? siguro! I don't consider myself an anti-social, really. This is just me. If all these are bad, I'll change. (Pwera lang siguro yung sa Facebook, hehe!)

at nga pala...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

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she told the story ... Saturday, January 01, 2011 10:23 am (jesusinsideme)

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

di ako superhero...

Writing this entry using the smallest font there is on blogdrive just to let you know that I'm not angry. I just want to feel or be small enough for a while so I could have the right amount of nuts.
You know who you are kamote. To be honest, you haven't been visiting my thoughts lately and just so you know, each time you do, the gates for unwelcomed guests are being opened. You don't hold any key nor have I given you a foothold but your knock just wakes the shingles (for lack of a better term. hehe) outta me. Gusto ko lang ipaalam ulit, sa huling pagkakataon, na hindi ako galit sayo. The amazing silence I think is what I need right now and I'm sure not hearing anything from me is an epic bliss for you. Tampo? Oo! at medyo matindi, yun ang meron ako. Tama ka, hindi ako si superman at di ako nangangarap maging hero o maging magic bibe man lang ni super inday...I was just trying to be me...your friend (I guess). I know that I might've given you the impression that everything was going swell but it all just sank in one day...while I was trying to put my best foot forward, I realized that you didn't seem to care. Maybe I'm not a good friend, maybe I'm not a good listener and maybe I'm not perfect...who is anyway? But maybe I still want to care, maybe I still want to be here for you when nobody else understands, maybe I still want to greet you on your special days and walk as far as Kota Kinabalu with you, maybe I still want to be that friend you once knew and have accepted. Ewan ko ba brad, sa ngayon, parang malabo na. Di ko kase magets kung san nagsimula 'to e, isang araw na lang sabi mo ayaw mo na ng kasama, kung ako yung naging problema...what can I say? sorry. I don't need to know what I did. And again, I just want you to know that I got hurt and all the hurtful things you said keep ringing in my ears. I'm supposed to forget all of those but I just can't...at least not right now. Sorry and I....

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she told the story ... Tuesday, December 14, 2010 12:41 pm (jesusinsideme)

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Hey, You! Wassup?!

hey hey hey! Musta na mga peeps? hehehe! I know, I know...haven't been posting anything lately, busy kase at ang totoo, tinatamad ako magblog minsan. Hehe! But so people won't think I've completely abandoned this site, I wrote this entry para lang may masabi, hehe! But don't worry, I still don't have a facebook account and I'm not thinking of creating one. My friendster account hasn't been welcoming any visitors lately and so is my multiply. Hihihi! Well, I don't really care. I'm no facebook hater, just not a fan. Wala rin akong twitter kaya wag ng magtanung pa. Hehehe!

Hope you guys are all okay, whether you're a lurker or a passerby, just have a good day and take care, ayt? Cheers!

God bless!

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she told the story ... Wednesday, September 22, 2010 08:42 am (jesusinsideme)

Thursday, July 08, 2010

THE Abode

Currently dreaming of my own house...

WARNING: If you're not up for this, do not scroll down! I repeat, DO NOT SCROLL DOWN! Haha!

Hmmm...I wonder what it would look like? Hehehe! It'll definitely be a cool one!
My newest addiction... browsing for items I can put/incorporate in my house. Area rugs, china sets, sheets, kitchen utensils, ottoman, cool headboards, colored wallpapers, carpets, cups, chandeliers, dividers, table tops, wall paints, art pieces, vintage items, etc... (*pants*) Hehehe!

*COMMERCIAL BREAK* (Gaah! I'm so full! Roast beef with potato balls and bacon, whew!)

Since I'm so into colors, interesting prints and unique shapes/designs, the rooms in my house will have their own personality. I found some pieces which I think are awesome and are gonna be definitely MINE someday, bwahahaha!

Avian Scene Shower Curtain

Bubbled Glass Knobs Caged Ceramic Door Knob Patchwork Orchid Door Knob
Colors: Olive, Pink, Mint & Clear

Laelia Beddings Sundra Blossom Beddings

Both beddings come with quilts, standard shams, euro shams, bed skirts and white ruffled sheet sets.

Mixed Media Towels Pure and Good Hand Duo

The best thing about The Pure and Good Hand Duo is that it nestles in a wire vintage basket. It has the following scents:

Lemon Tarragon: sparkling notes of lemon, orange and grapefruit melded with notes of tarragon and sage

Mandarin Ginger: succulent mandarin, Valencia orange and tangelo, perfectly paired with spicy ginger and woodsy notes

Olive Blossom: crisp cucumber and pear blend with melon and floral olive blossom

In Perpetuity Switch Plates

Far-Flung Frame Fleur De Lys Dinner Plates Izmir Measuring Cups

Mr. and Mrs. Shaker Lovers Digital Clutch (hehe!)

The Eye of Time Desk Clock Vintage Rotary Phone Voice One Loudspeakers

Ikea's Trofast Eco - Paint

   Quirky Heirloom Throw                       Mila Area Rug                      Little Tulip Chair
                                                                                                                                                                 by: Pierre Paulin

5 Circular Framed Mirrors by: cb2 This Chandelier - don't know who made it

Italian Headboard by Osborne and Little's Tamara
(Pati yung bed narin siguro, hehehe!)

Except for the Chandelier, The Tulip Chair, The mirrors and the Trofast, everything was from ANTHROPOLOGIE

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I want this kitchen!

And this!!!!!

I didn't put them in the cart because I don't wanna see how much it all costs, hehehe! So, to you, my future husband, humanda ka na sa mga ito! Bwahahahaha! Joke lang! Ang totoo niyan, kaya kong maghanap ng alternative, if not the exact same thing, maybe something different and cheaper but are equally colorful and cool. Ang gusto ko lang ay makulay. Most of the house's parts will be painted in white because I want all the burst of colors to be noticeable. The most important part though will be the PRAYER ROOM. I didn't put up a picture of what I want it to look like because I will not pick it's design, the Lord will. It'll be grand for sure!

I will start praying for this....why don't you?!

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she told the story ... Thursday, July 08, 2010 03:27 pm (jesusinsideme)

Tuesday, July 06, 2010

thinkin' out loud!

Yeah, I'm just thinkin' out loud.

(WARNING: If you're a churchmate and you're reading this, don't worry, these are people from outside our cone.)

You know something that ticks me off? It's when people bash others and think they have all the right to. They expect people to bow before their hideous throne of perfection and appease their attention-grubbing ego.
I don't care about your looks, how you dress up or even if you have that air of superiority in you but if you put others down by saying how good of a person you are and that others can never live up to your standards, then I guess I'm one of the confederates in your kingdom. I'd rain on your parade and blow up all the floats. Ewan ko ba pero ang dugo ko at presyon ay tumataas sa mga taong ganun. They even wonder why they have haters! Haller?! Why don't you start pointing all your fingers at yourself?

We can never ever please everybody. Respect can never be a private in an army because it'll always be like a badge...it's earned. Saying nothing is wisdom and people can admire you for that. Authority isn't always imposed , if you do what is right, you'll find others falling in for your command. Talking others out of a bad decision and encouraging them even through a simple blog post can save a gallon of tears. A simple note of inspiration can get someone in the move despite their afflictions. Mas maraming oras at salita para manghusga pero kahit isang segundo walang maibigay para may masabing tama at di makapanakit. Kung ganun ka, well... BATO BATO SA LANGIT, ANG TAMAAN...WAG SANANG MABUKULAN, SANA MAGBAGO!

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she told the story ... Tuesday, July 06, 2010 02:05 pm (jesusinsideme)

Monday, February 22, 2010

Dugtungan

Was just trying...again...to think of what to write. I think I can write about anything right now, or so I thought. So I googled some unfinished stories online and chose this one story I had to put an ending to.

It's from: Goodnight Stories

A STRANGE DREAM

Their story goes:

It was getting late, and the kids had to get ready for bed. They were already done with their dinner and had brushed their teeth. They kissed their parents goodnight and curled in their beds under the covers.

It was a bit chilly but not too much, but Molly kept herself bundled up so that her little feet wouldn't get cold. After a while, her and her little brother Steve were sound asleep.

Molly started dreaming of a beautiful green park with lots of big trees and berry bushes. She saw herself walking around with her little brother when she saw a pair of red shiny boots in the bushes. They looked sparkly new and she thought they were just the size of her cold little feet. "These boots will keep my feet warm" she thought, and when she didn't find anyone in the park she figured that they don't belong to anyone.

Molly tried the boots on and they fit perfectly! Her brother thought they looked beautiful on her. Molly stood up and started walking, but all of a sudden...
MY CONTINUATION AND ENDING (Somewhat, hehe!) :

Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz strangely appeared from behind the bushes. She said, "Those are my shoes. I left them here while I was trying to convince Tin Man that it isn't the clicking of the heels that can take us where we want to go. It's what's inside of us...our hearts. Clearly, he doesn't have it."
Molly looked at her feet thinking that it was supposed to be a pair of boots she was wearing. To her surprise, what was keeping her feet warm was a pair of cute little red shoes. Hadn't she known who Dorothy was, she wouldn't have given it away. But Molly realized what Dorothy meant and gave the shoes back.

She and her brother went on their way towards the thickets when they stopped and suddenly realized where they were standing. They looked around and before them was a huge expanse of colorful flowers. Molly felt her heart swell with excitement that she even felt Steve's heartbeat too. They ran and grazed around until Molly heard a sweet voice, one that is so familiar, she even cringed at the sound. "Wake up Molly, darling! It's time to go to school honey." It's her mother. Looking lovingly at her and she smiled back when Molly did.

Note: All the other endings on the website were written by little children. Nakisali lang ako, haha!

Haha! Di ko alam kung may kwenta but it reminded me of this little girl at church I was playing with yesterday. (Yes, we were playing! If you know me, it wouldn't be a surprise, hehe!) She's five years old and used to have a semi-long curly hair but her mom cut it so short she'd look like a boy if she won't wear a dress. A band was on her head and she was wearing this flower-peppered dress and a pair of rubber shoes. O ha, yun ang nasa uso. hehe! Because she's just five and can't even talk straight, in short, bulol pa, you wouldn't sometimes understand a word she says. She has this cute little dimple on, hmmmm, I can't remember which cheek and her teeth needs a serious overhaul from the toothfairy, hihi! She's really adorable. She held my hand and said she wanted to go to the altar. I went up to the altar with her at ito ang nangyari:

Little Girl: Tara pray tayo! (Note: Bulol ang pagkakasabi, hehe!)
Me: Sige pray tayo.

She knelt down and when she saw that I wasn't kneeling down, she said "Luhod ka rin". So we knelt down and she prayed.

Little Girl: Lord, si Bebe po (her little sister) di na lalabas ambahay, si papa po uwi na po siya tsaka si mama ko po di na sila away. Di po sila... (and she said other things I didn't quite understand but the Lord did.) She looked up at me and said, "Kaw naman!"
Me: Lord, thank you po sa chocolate na bibigay niyo sa kanya (I meant her). Thank you po sa maraming candy na bibigay niyo sa kanya. Thank you po sa maraming toys na bibigay niyo sa kanya. Amen.

I opened up my eyes, looked at her and then she said "tsaka headband na color pink na may flower....tsaka sapatos".

I laughed. It was the most wonderful thing I've heard that day. When she prayed, she asked the Lord for things she knows, she doesn't have now, not material things. Her baby sister's security, her daddy, the peace in her family. It was simply selfless, innocent, pure and filled with faith. When she knew there was somebody who can ask the Lord for the things she really wanted for herself, she took advantage. That is so sweet. I know the Lord heard her prayer because after a short while, somebody pledged to give her the headband she was asking for.

This is why Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."
- Matthew 19:14.

Ikaw, kamusta faith mo?

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she told the story ... Monday, February 22, 2010 02:01 pm (jesusinsideme)

Thursday, February 18, 2010

TAG! YOU'RE IT!

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night?
Last night?? Wala e...tulog lang ako, hehehe!

2. What were you doing at 0800?
Searching for what to post on here.

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Praying....thinkin' about someone.

4. What happened to you in 2006?
Nakow, tagal na...ewan ko.

5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
Hmmm...kanina lang yun e, di ko lang maalala, hehe sorry.

6. How many beverages did you have today?
One bottle of orange juice, a glass of strawberry shake and don't know how many glasses of water, o ha.

7. What color is your hairbrush?
I don't use a hairbrush coz it always feels like my hair gets tangled up all the more with it. Hair doctor ang gamit ko or any comb with big teeth, gets?

8. What was the last thing you paid for?
Cheezy Bacon and Potato

9. Where were you last night?
In the livingroom, having a serious but refreshing conversation with my Dearest.

10. What color is your front door?
Wood. May konting bakas ng Ondoy kaya mejo nagfade. hehe.

11. Where do you keep your change?
In my purse.

12. What’s the weather like today?
Sunny. Hot. Kinda hate it.

13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
Very rocky road. Or just the simple Ministop Hershey's Ice cream...masaya lang siya kainin with friends.

14. What excites you?
Anything that has something to do with Jesus.

15. Do you want to cut your hair?
Just did but still not the style I wanted. Cut it quite short because of the tangles and split-ends.

16. Are you over the age of 25?
Just a year over.

17. Do you talk a lot?
Yes, whenever I talk to God, hehehe. But I'm generally quiet pero pag nachachallenge at naaadik, ayun, walang tigil din, hehe!

18. Do you watch the O.C.?
Used to. Few eps lang.

19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
Nope. Stephen I do know.

20. Do you make up your own words?
Sometimes.

21. Are you a jealous person?
Uhhhh....errr...yea....y.eesss? uhmmm..sometimes..hihihi!

22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.
Anthony

23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.
Karen

24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?
My BFF Cris.

25. What does the last text message you received say?
"Ikit, bili mo ko ng pagkain..." - o ha? may patago, haha!

26. Do you chew on your straw?
Yes, unconsciously though. (Sabay kamot sa ulo) hehe!

27. Do you have curly hair?
Just wavy without the treatments.

28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?
CEBU!!!!!!!!! hoooooooo!

29. Who’s the rudest person in your life?
hehehe...In Jesus' Name, wala!

30. What was the last thing you ate?
Thin crust pizza and grilled pork - Uncle Cheffy's, Mini donuts - Krispy Kreme.

31. Will you get married in the future?
SYEMPS!

32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
Nakakahiyang aminin pero kinilig ako sa "A Very Special Love" ni John Lloyd and Sarah...hahaha! Katuwa lang.

33. Is there anyone you like right now?
Nako, marami yan. haha!

34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
Last Saturday.

35. Are you currently depressed?
NOPE. Never will be.

36. Did you cry today?
Ahhh...not really. Just got a little upset but I'm over it.

37. Why did you answer and post this?
Wala kaseng maipost. Yun lang.

38. 5 people you tag next?
Actually, my friends have forgotten about their blogs so I guess anyone who'll read this and might be interested to do the same...i'll say, TAG, YOU'RE IT!

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she told the story ... Thursday, February 18, 2010 06:04 pm (jesusinsideme)

Saturday, February 13, 2010

La lang... =)

Alone in our house right now. Just excited about tomorrow coz I'm gonna share the Word, woohoo! I can never be as excited as I am right now.
Listening to a song. Jars of Clay's Tea and Sympathy. The chorus goes something like... "it's not the way, it has to be, don't trade our love for tea and sympathy". I can sing this song to that one particular person I have in mind.
Thinkin' about a friend I know I somehow hurt and whatever I did seemed a little unforgivable. I know how bad of a friend I can be sometimes and I wish I hadn't been and never again will be. Now this person is not too far away to reach but not close enough to be with. I feel bad whenever I think about it coz maybe, there are things I still don't understand. And MAYBE, I got hurt too. Wish I could take it all back...but I can't. Miss you.

Emo ba to? hehehe!

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she told the story ... Saturday, February 13, 2010 07:21 pm (jesusinsideme)

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